Hey there peeps!
I am baaack to posting yaw!
I read Fathihah's blog.
And it made me kinda re-think what i've done for this year.
Some random questions i asked myself:-
1.Why am i born in this cruel world?
2.Why do people like calling me names?
3.Why do some people befriend me?
4.Is it true that those i called best friends really are those who can be trusted etc?
5.Why must life be so cruel and unfair?
Ohkays,so that are some of the questions uh.
My family,for now,is still ohkay.
Even if there is a problem here and there,
i don't even know who to tell.
Yeah,so that's about my family.
What about friendship?
I am not so sure about it myself.
Is it wrong to forget about my best friends for a while unintentionally?
Is it a sin to do that?
Is it wrong to say i love someone else during the holidays?
Is that also considered a sin?
Is it wrong to say I am just being an extra in a friendship?
Is it fair to be treated...not the same as others?
Do those i care about care about me?
Am i being hypocritical by saying these?
I am not searching fault or whatever.
It's just how i feel.
I just sense that
someone,who is my best friend,treats
another someone better than me.
Yeah,maybe it's not true.But,who knows right?
I mean,like,I can sense it.
I felt used and unappreciated.
Yeah,so i have let all my feelings out.
And,please-don't ever call my brothers names again.
I seriously can't take it.
I am just typing everything here in this darn blog so that some people will know whether what they did hurt my feelings or not.
I did not say that verbally because i did not want our friendship to be damaged because of this.
Will you guys like it if someone,who is quite close to you,suddenly says that your brother/sister looks like a ____!How in the damn world will you feel?
Oh yes,maybe it's just for fun i know.
But don't make it too often lah.
I seriously don't know what to do you know.
I seriously feel that i am a useless sister.
Yeah,who the heck will care whether i am stupid or clever when i so called cannot even protect my brother?
Oh,here's a proverb that you all really need to practice everyday in your life-
Don't judge a book by it's cover.
I have a happy family of my own.
I have fun,crazy,happy friends.
But I also need a friend which i can really rely on.
What Fathihah said is true.
It's really hard to find.
Gosh,so what if I may seem strong on the outside at times.
I am a human too.
And I cry.
I am sorry guys.
I don't wish to talk to anyone for now.
See ya.I know you love me.
with loveees,
Khadijah.